She's gone

A Hectic Month

As you may have guessed it, it's been a kind of a crazy month since University ended for the summer.

I'm still working at a bookstore part time. My hours have increased for the summer due to full time staff taking vacations, and one of our full time staff members leaving.

It's a busy time of year because a large portion of our customers are teachers buying books for their classrooms. It's the end of budget years and teachers have become frantic and in many situations very demanding.

My dogs' health has also plummeted very suddenly. Both Joey and Shelby have become very fussy eaters and their diet has been changed multiple times in the past couple of weeks out of desperation to get them to eat anything at all. My baby girl, Shelby, is now at the point where she refuses to eat pretty much anything at all -even banana, her favourite food.

Shelby is a miracle at this point. Over a year ago we were told by the vet that she would likely not live longer than 2 months. Now 14 months later she is still with us, and up until a week ago, was as strong as ever.

But knowing that I got an entire year with her that I wasn't supposed to, knowing that she was a fighter for so long, knowing that death is inevitable doesn't make the thought of losing her any easier.

School has already started to stress me out as well. I am scheduled to graduate next year, which puts pressure on to figure out what I'm doing with my life. Do I pursue Education like I always assumed? Do I go in a different direction because of my anxiety associated with becoming a teacher? If I do decide to become a teacher, am I going to be able to find a job, or are my major and minor going to make me unemployable? I'm very nervous and I'm not exactly sure what I'm doing at this point. The stress associated with this is only magnified by the fact that I'm supposed to have selected and met with an adviser to have my courses approved for next year already. It's barely June!

But like many things, there's nothing I can really do but continue to push through and deal with all the scary stuff one day at a time.